Senin, 31 Oktober 2011

I'm still breathing even when you hurt me

"When was the last time you thought of me? Or have you completely erased me from your memory?"

Why did you leave me last year? I know it was my fault to waste your time but I never wanted to do this for you.
Can you just go back to me? I promise you I wont hurt you anymore. Cause you dont know how lovely you are.

But I understand if you wont. I know I hurt you. That was my fault to wasted you away. And maybe I dont have anything left from you. This sickness has no cure.


The first time you left I said goodbye but look at me know. Drowning. You're just too deep inside. I try so many times just to let you go, just to forget how you used to call me your little fairy, just to forget how your eyes said that you love me. I try but I just can't. That's it.

And the fact that you're happy without me there beside you is just another heartache on my list. I'd rather hurt my hand with a blades than feel hurt by your way to do this. Its killing me and I know you know.

I just cant stop asking why. Why? Why did you do this for me? I dont know why you stare at me that way everytime you hurt me.

You know I love you so.

I just want you to remember me. Remember when you're happy with me. Remember that you ever promise me to love me forever, that this is not just your another bullshits. Remember the way I love you like no one before. At least remember my name just to know that I'm here, waiting for you to come back to me.

Rabu, 26 Oktober 2011

Your Sweetest Thing You Left In Me

I've been sitting all alone waiting for the sun when you came into my life
Who are you make me down on my knees beg for your smile today?
Its all about your way to make me laugh when nobody can't. Now once again I beg for it but you won't

Do you remember your way stare at my eyes? Tell me how so I can tell someone else when you are not here to stare at me.
How can you told me that lies for sure, Its hurt when all you've said is fading now

I know you're changing but how and why? I wanna tell you its hurt but I dont know how.
I know you wont hold my hand the way you did it last year but tell me how you can forget it easily.
I can't stand how much I love you when I know you hate me. Guess what, Its getting harder everyday, boy.

Hell. I'm waiting for nothing. Just wait and I don't know how to stop it. Hell.