I'm still breathing even when you hurt me

"When was the last time you thought of me? Or have you completely erased me from your memory?"

Why did you leave me last year? I know it was my fault to waste your time but I never wanted to do this for you.
Can you just go back to me? I promise you I wont hurt you anymore. Cause you dont know how lovely you are.

But I understand if you wont. I know I hurt you. That was my fault to wasted you away. And maybe I dont have anything left from you. This sickness has no cure.


The first time you left I said goodbye but look at me know. Drowning. You're just too deep inside. I try so many times just to let you go, just to forget how you used to call me your little fairy, just to forget how your eyes said that you love me. I try but I just can't. That's it.

And the fact that you're happy without me there beside you is just another heartache on my list. I'd rather hurt my hand with a blades than feel hurt by your way to do this. Its killing me and I know you know.

I just cant stop asking why. Why? Why did you do this for me? I dont know why you stare at me that way everytime you hurt me.

You know I love you so.

I just want you to remember me. Remember when you're happy with me. Remember that you ever promise me to love me forever, that this is not just your another bullshits. Remember the way I love you like no one before. At least remember my name just to know that I'm here, waiting for you to come back to me.